I have one thought that keeps permeating my mind lately. I wonder, often, as this lifestyle is hidden from family and friends, or at least the nitty gritty details of it are, about a few things.
First and foremost on my mind is would I want this lifestyle for any of our children? You know those little rugrats that are always looking up to us, trying to figure us out, and drive us crazy all at the same time?
Our children do not know that Hoss spanks me, but they do know that Hoss is in charge and he has the final say. Over the past year I have deferred to him for more things than ever before. Do they see a difference? Aside from less arguing and more joy between their parents, do they see the changes going on? I do not know the answer to this question exactly, but I do think they notice their parents are more loving and kind to one another, less strife, more patience. Would I want for them to experience this lifestyle for their own when they become adults? I'm not sure if I know how to answer that one just yet. Very curious what others think.....
Secondly, who, if anyone do you share this lifestyle with?
We do not openly share this lifestyle with others in our family, but do they notice a change?
My mother has noticed a difference. Mom has remarked that I'm happier, but also is frustrated when I defer to Hoss. She has said often that she understands me wanting to be submissive (Biblical submission is what we discuss), but not why I have to ask him about plans and things that I used to just make on my own. Mom knows I've always been so independent, so I know she's a bit confused at the change, not telling her though. Good grief, can you imagine how that conversation would go down? Yeah, not going there, folks.
My best friend has questioned me at times about how I'm always listening to my husband. I have desired to share with her probably the most, but cannot. That would just be so awkward. Would she understand? She's not particularly submissive, so I'm not sure she would.
I'm thankful I can blog and get things out and off my chest. I'm thankful for the other bloggers who have answered my bazillion of questions and listened to my endless thoughts. For that I am extremely appreciative.
I also wonder, if there were no adverse repercussions, who would I tell first?
So, what about the rest of you. Do you share with loved ones? Would you want this for your children? Would you even feel comfortable sharing this lifestyle or suggesting it to a friend? I'm full of questions and ponderings this morning.
Let me know what you think, I'm all ears!