Tuesday, April 30, 2019

Indirect and a Little Confusing

Here I sit.  Quietly.  The house is quiet too.  Hoss took the kids...all the kids, out for the evening.  Shopping.  Well, it's literally been months since I have had an evening alone.  To tell the truth I truly have no idea when the last time this event actually occurred when I was not sick.  

So, right before he left I was telling my sweet man that I had not blogged in almost two months.  Maybe, just maybe, tonight I would try to write something.  Anything.  It would not be profound or all together interesting.  Everyone knows we are busy raising a large family, incorporating DD into our daily lives, and just basically doing the very best we can.  Those blogging friends who have inquired know that life sucked us up in a hole lately.  That if I send an email, I am doing well.  No true worries here, just so busy.  Life happening so quickly.  I want to spend and cherish these moments and yet they seem to flirt by me and are lost into the next thing of my day.  
As I was writing this I did think of a few thoughts and things that have happened that I do want to share...things I have appreciated or have had deep gratitude towards.

I did want to say that Hoss and I recently celebrated our anniversary.  The marriage one and the DD one go hand in hand.  Three years of DD has literally changed our lives.  How we view one another.  How we process things.  How we "do" life.   He is most definitely the love of my life, the first person I see in the morning and the last one I lay eyes on at night.  He said recently that I, yes I, "complete him."  I am more in love each day with my sweet, giving man.  Thank you, Hoss for so many rich years growing older together.
I am feeling slightly melancholy tonight, can you tell?  We have learned and gained so much in the last few years, that I wish, I so wish, we had started this sooner.  It would have saved us so much grief and heartache, but maybe it was just meant to be that way.  To be honest, I'm okay with that.
I hope everyone is doing well.  I did try to get around to as many blogs as I could tonight and read.  To soak up on all of your knowledge, words of wisdom and kindness, encouragement to those around you.  I think it's simply beautiful how this community is here encouraging one another.  Loving on one another.  Being there for one another.  Thank you to the ladies who have cared.  Who have reached out.  Who have encouraged us from the very beginning and through the past three years.  We have made priceless friendships.  Each one unique and giving in it's own way.  When I began blogging one of my main reasons was to make friends, to have friendships.  I needed support to understand and learn from others.  Many, many of you have been there for us.  Thank you.  Each and everyone that has written a comment, dropped an email, even just one.  I'm thankful.  I have gleaned so much from each of you. 
I feel like naming each kindness shown, but that would take forever and a day and no one would want to read all of that mushy stuff anyway.  I just want to say thank you.  Whether you read here and have never commented, stopped by and always say, "Hi," often, or to those who have become some of my best friends I could ever ask for.  You are appreciated, you are loved and you are treasured by me.
Now, taking off the melancholy.  Hope to be around more that school is getting close to being done.  I do have many ideas and thoughts to share.  Just hang in there, folks, I'm trying to get back here.  Just working on the when.