Thursday, May 31, 2018

I'm Still Here and Throwback Thursday Post!

It seems every time I get on here the last few months it’s to apologize for my absence.  This one truly could not be helped.  I’d told a few other bloggers I was taking an unofficial sabbatical (too stinking bad it was not paid!).  Maybe a better term would have been a self imposed time out!  Anyway, I just could not find it in me to blog and worse yet, in my mind, is I did not want to blog.  
I lurked when I could and commented even less.  I apologize, but I just did not want to be in blogland.  I do not mean for that to sound rude.  It’s not any of you, just me...us.  Hoss and I are doing some re-prioritizing and my focus needs to be more on our home and children.  I was also finishing a large project that took what little reserves I had left.  My attitude has not been stellar lately.  I don’t like deadlines, but I needed this one.  Thankfully that project is done.  

I am feeling much better and now I’m ready to creep back in slowly and enjoy Blogland again.  I also treated myself to a wonderful new book.  Maybe you all have heard of it?  Educating Jenny by Ms. PK Corey.  It’s her third book in the series of Cal’s Law books.  If you want a good read, I’d highly recommend it.  I love the progress of the story line from book to book and I truly wish more authors would consider writing more serial style books on one couple.  It's like blogging where we can see the progress in an individual couple.
Other than that excellent book, I’ve not even been sure what to blog about.  I told a few that my muse has left me.  Well, thank you to PK and Nora Jean (with a little additional shove out the door by Amy) I am ready to post a Throwback Thursday post.  I hope you all enjoy it!  

By the way, Nora Jean, I’ve only blogged for 19 months.  I still feel sometimes as if I am toddling about and have no idea what I'm doing while the pros are still cranking out interesting and entertaining posts regularly.

So without further ado...a post I wrote last spring..


When Did...?
May 5, 2017

Not so many moons ago we started this little adventure and as I was pondering things this morning I came up with the reality that I have no idea when things changed.  I’m certain it was and is the same for most of you as well.  So, here is a bit of my wandering thoughts.

When did Hoss become a spanko?  Like when did that happen?  My sweet man who has always treated me like a prize (and continues to do so) and would never hurt me has become, a spanko.  Now, you ask, how do I know this? Well, the man gets a certain twinkle in his eyes when he or I mention words like Bertha, Senor Loopy or Sid.  He smiles wide and is at peace just by saying one of their names calmly to himself.  Yes, my friends, when did this wonderful man find his inner spanko.  As the old Tootsie Pop commercial says, “The World May Never Know!”  


I still love the tootsie pop commercial from when I was a kid.

When did this go from something I wanted. to something we both crave?  I’d love to know when that transition occurred.  It started out as something to help me feel complete and it evolved into something so much more than just being about me and my needs.  It became about him, me, us.  It strengthened our resolve to not be a statistic.  To cherish one another daily.  

Well, not exactly that kind of craving, but well....

When did we slip into our roles of a traditional husband and wife?  It was something to help our marriage, yes.  But when did it become where I meet him at the door excited to see him.  No, not Ward and June Cleaver stuff, but definitely something that is more affirming, more romantic, more intimate. Where I know he is in charge and it makes my heart beat faster just thinking of him.  


Awww!!

When did the spankings make things go from, “Hey, I’ll do this for you, but I don’t want to hurt you,” to “Hey, get over here, I’m going to spank some sense into you?”  Like, seriously, when did that happen?  I want to know when he went from spank carefully, my wife is fragile, to spank happy man? There are days I want Mr. Spank Carefully to return.  Geez.
This one speaks for itself.

When did once in awhile “exercise” become apart of the daily routine.  It “came’ quickly, I’d say.  Let’s just leave that one alone, why don’t we…..

Duh, no brainer.

When did the focus change from individual, do your own thing, to checking in and making sure we were both good with our plans.  That need to be connected daily and when the connection is not there it is not ignored, but felt deeply.  And knowing there is a way to improve it.


When did we become so connected?  I never remember allowing myself to feel so deeply and yet feel so much more myself at the same time.  Our connection has grown, but I also feel like we are both still so uniquely individual, but more of who we were before, if that make sense.  It as though by being a stronger couple we are allowed the freedom to be more of who we are as individuals as well.

When did I allow myself this vulnerability?  I have always been such an independent woman.  Even as a little girl I “didn’t need any help” and yet now I crave his help.  I want and value his input and wisdom.  In allowing myself to be vulnerable, I’ve allowed him to be affirmed in his role as my protector and leader than ever before.


I could not choose between the two of these, so I'm giving you both.


When did all of these things happen?  I do not know, but I’m so thankful they did.



I could go on, but I’m also very curious from the rest of you out there.  When did….(fill in the blank) happen?  I’d love to hear from everyone who stops in, even if you do not have a when did, please feel free to just say, “Hi.”  Thanks again for reading.

Thanks for reading!  I hope everyone enjoyed this throwback Thursday, I sure did!  It definitely gave me the kick in the butt to get going again.  A special thanks to Windy, Amy, and Lindy for listening to all of my wishy washy, indecisive chatter on the subject of "to blog or not to blog."  Now, I remember why....thanks everyone!

--Baker



  

24 comments:

  1. WOW..when you come back you do it with a BANG!! I was in that palace where I was just reading and occasionally commenting...but just could not find it in me to post. I am over it..and glad you are also.
    When did I finally stop building walls around the inner me...strong ones, brick by brick, and slowly stated to let someone in, and take those walls down. When did I first realize how freeing and wonderful it felt to have those walls tumble down...hugs abby

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  2. Hi Baker,

    It's wonderful to see you post :) I think we have all taken an hiatus, or sabatical from blogland at various times and for various reasons. Sometimes we just need to step back for a little while.

    I love the Throwback Thursday idea! I remember this awesome post :)

    Hugs
    Roz

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    1. Thanks, Roz,
      Yes a hiatus is probably a better word choice. Thanks!
      --Baker

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  3. Yay so happy to see you back blogging Baker. Loved reading your Throwback Thursday, well written.
    Hugs Lindy xx

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    1. Thanks, bestie, happy to be back.
      --Baker

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  4. Welcome back Baker! "Just because I'm a gentleman..." is Eric's motto. I love it. Fun reading back at the beginning!
    Amy

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    1. Thanks, my friend, it was fun to reread.
      --Baker

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  5. Welcome back to blogland, Baker ... a rest is good now and then, especially when you have a busy life filled with family and all that entails!
    Your TBT repost was a perfect read for me/us. This is about where Frank and I are ... marvelling at the changes we see in each other. Thanks for the share! ... nj ... xx

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    1. NJ,it is quite amazing to me as well. I'm glad you enjoyed reading it!
      --Baker

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  6. Sometimes life gets in the way and there’s just no time or inclination to blog. I’ve been pretty much a catch-up Charlie (or Charlene!) lately but hope to change that now things have settled down again.
    Enjoyed this TBT.
    Rosie xx

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    1. Thanks so much, Rosie, it makes sense to take a step back on occasion. Glad so many others understood.
      --Baker

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  7. This was a good post to choose for this TBT challenge, Baker. You have a unique style to your writing, and this one really made me smile.

    Don't have an answer to your question. I don't know when it happened, but I sure as hell am glad that it did! Good to hear from you today.

    Hugs From Ella

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    1. Thank you, Miss Ella,
      I'm really happy you liked this post.
      --Baker

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  8. Well I totally understand where you are coming from as I am guilty of a similar thing, repeatedly. You just gotta do what you gotta do. This is a great throw back and I am glad that you posted it. Take care if yourself and I am glad that you enjoyed P.K.'s book(s). She is one of my favorite authors.

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    1. Hey, girl, I like to say, "It is what it is," because things were so crazy that it felt like one more thing would have been the end all, be all, ya know? Now with things settling into a decent routine, it feels good to write again.
      --Baker

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  9. Baker! Thank you so much for the shout out about Educating Jenny - I'm so glad you liked it! And thank you for jumping into the TBT idea. This is a great post most of us don't know when the change occurred, but we all felt something like this.

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    1. No problem, PK, I thoroughly enjoy all of your books. And yes, I agree. Most definitely a mystery when this occurs as it tends to be so gradual.
      --Baker

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  10. Baker,
    Welcome back. Sometimes noticing what is important to you generates post ideas. Give it a try.
    Meredith

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    1. Good thought, thanks for the suggestion!
      --Baker

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  11. Your bubbly personality shines in this post. So cute to read about the early days of you and your Hoss! Hugs!

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    1. Thanks, Windy, this has been one of my favorite all time posts due to the sentiment of,"how in the world did we get here?!". We've learned a ton, that's for sure! Thanks!
      --Baker

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  12. been there done that - taken a hiatus or 12 i mean! glad to see your posts.

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    1. Thanks, Fondles,
      I'm finally feeling like I can be here without feeling crazy by adding it back into my day. Thanks for stopping in!
      --Baker

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