Tuesday, April 30, 2019

Indirect and a Little Confusing

Here I sit.  Quietly.  The house is quiet too.  Hoss took the kids...all the kids, out for the evening.  Shopping.  Well, it's literally been months since I have had an evening alone.  To tell the truth I truly have no idea when the last time this event actually occurred when I was not sick.  

So, right before he left I was telling my sweet man that I had not blogged in almost two months.  Maybe, just maybe, tonight I would try to write something.  Anything.  It would not be profound or all together interesting.  Everyone knows we are busy raising a large family, incorporating DD into our daily lives, and just basically doing the very best we can.  Those blogging friends who have inquired know that life sucked us up in a hole lately.  That if I send an email, I am doing well.  No true worries here, just so busy.  Life happening so quickly.  I want to spend and cherish these moments and yet they seem to flirt by me and are lost into the next thing of my day.  
As I was writing this I did think of a few thoughts and things that have happened that I do want to share...things I have appreciated or have had deep gratitude towards.

I did want to say that Hoss and I recently celebrated our anniversary.  The marriage one and the DD one go hand in hand.  Three years of DD has literally changed our lives.  How we view one another.  How we process things.  How we "do" life.   He is most definitely the love of my life, the first person I see in the morning and the last one I lay eyes on at night.  He said recently that I, yes I, "complete him."  I am more in love each day with my sweet, giving man.  Thank you, Hoss for so many rich years growing older together.
I am feeling slightly melancholy tonight, can you tell?  We have learned and gained so much in the last few years, that I wish, I so wish, we had started this sooner.  It would have saved us so much grief and heartache, but maybe it was just meant to be that way.  To be honest, I'm okay with that.
I hope everyone is doing well.  I did try to get around to as many blogs as I could tonight and read.  To soak up on all of your knowledge, words of wisdom and kindness, encouragement to those around you.  I think it's simply beautiful how this community is here encouraging one another.  Loving on one another.  Being there for one another.  Thank you to the ladies who have cared.  Who have reached out.  Who have encouraged us from the very beginning and through the past three years.  We have made priceless friendships.  Each one unique and giving in it's own way.  When I began blogging one of my main reasons was to make friends, to have friendships.  I needed support to understand and learn from others.  Many, many of you have been there for us.  Thank you.  Each and everyone that has written a comment, dropped an email, even just one.  I'm thankful.  I have gleaned so much from each of you. 
I feel like naming each kindness shown, but that would take forever and a day and no one would want to read all of that mushy stuff anyway.  I just want to say thank you.  Whether you read here and have never commented, stopped by and always say, "Hi," often, or to those who have become some of my best friends I could ever ask for.  You are appreciated, you are loved and you are treasured by me.
Now, taking off the melancholy.  Hope to be around more that school is getting close to being done.  I do have many ideas and thoughts to share.  Just hang in there, folks, I'm trying to get back here.  Just working on the when.

Love,
Baker

20 comments:

  1. TI have finally found my way back to blog land...and I am eagerly awaiting your return...I still remember today the first time M told me ....you complete me...I was awed into silence...then later, as I thought about it...I realized it was true...both ways...what a wonderful thing to complete each other. Eagerly awaiting to hear more of your thoughts...hugs abby

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    1. Hi, Abby,
      When Hoss said that he completed me I felt awe. So I totally hear you there. I do hope to get back into the swing of things soon. I do want to visit and be here. I just need to make it a priority. Hopefully soon.
      --Baker

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  2. Hi Baker,

    It's so great to see you post!:) hooray for some alone time...time out for Mom lol. I bet that is very rare for you and I hope you enjoyed the peace and quiet.

    This is such a lovely post. This community truly is amazing. I never dreamed I would make such wonderful friend's here and I am so blessed to count you as one of those friends. I value our friendship more than I can say.

    Congratulations to you and Hoss on you wedding anniversary and three years of dd.

    Love
    Roz

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    1. Hi, Roz,
      It was really a good quiet time. Thanks for your kind words. Your friendship means a ton to me as well.
      --Baker

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  3. No matter how long you have been gone, Baker, we will be here when life gives you time to get back. Whenever things are overwhelming and I drop out of blogland for a while, I miss it terribly. It fulfills a need I have of bonding with women like me.

    I smiled when you wrote about wishing you and Hoss had started ttwd earlier. Have often thought of that myself. Sam says there is a reason it came to us when it did. To just count yourself lucky it came at all.

    You were missed.
    Hugs From Ella

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    1. Miss Ella,
      Your words mean alot. Yes, we do tend to pine for things. Don't we? Good news is it is here, it is strong, and we are loving this lifestyle (well mostly). Thanks for always being such a kind friend.
      --Baker

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  4. I must admit a while back I realized I hadn't read anything from you.... and thought I should fire off a comment at least asking if you were still around....... but then (shrug) I couldn't find the right words (thought I sounded nosy) and then got caught up in life and never got around to it....

    Was pleased to see this blog entry this morning... just to know you're still muddling along...

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    1. Oh, MS, I would totally have loved to hear from you. I'm just slow getting to anything right now, but I'm getting better. Thanks for thinking of me!
      --Baker

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  5. Happy Anniversaries, Baker & Hoss! ... I'm with Ella ... we can always say we wish ttwd had happened sooner but I'd rather think it happened when it counted the most.

    Happy for you that you had found some 'me' down time ... and used some of it to check in with all and let us know how you're doing ... hugs! ... nj

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    1. Thanks, NJ, I love my "Me time," but it doesn't happen often enough. I appreciate it when it does though. Thanks for your sweet words.
      --Baker

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  6. It's great to see a post from you. I can only guess at how busy life is for you. My life use to be crazy busy when the kids were younger but no so much now. Happy Anniversary. I hope that you have many, many more to come. Hope you enjoyed your quiet time. Look forward to haring from you soon.

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    1. Thanks, Blondie, I do appreciate knowing others have gone through this with kids too and survived! LOL! Thanks for the happy anniversary wishes!
      --Baker

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  7. Good to see you finding time to write a post amongst your extremely busy schedule Baker. Also that you have had time to STOP AND SMELL THE ROSES. lol!
    Happy anniversary to you and Hoss and happy 3rd DD anniversary. Hope you find a special way to celebrate both.
    Hugs Lindy

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    1. Hey, Bestie, occasionally I do what you suggest and stop and smell those roses. Or in this case stopped and checked in with all of you! Happy to see you feeling better and up to par enough to leave a sweet comment.
      --Baker

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  8. Hi! I loved this post. Just a real, this is where we are, post. :) I'm glad you had an evening to yourself. You deserve that! :) {{{hugs}}} Happy Anniversary. :)
    Hugs, EsMay

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    1. Aw, thanks, EsMay, I did have a good night!
      --Baker

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  9. Hmmm, it erased my comment. Trying again, lol Hi, I am sooooo glad you got a night to yourself. :) :) The family should all go together shopping without you more often. You deserve it. :) Happy Anniversary, my dear friend.
    Hugs, EsMay

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    1. LOL, I got both comments, and I'm thankful you tried again! They should get out more often. I actually had a little time last night to myself as well, but was too lazy to get online. Thanks for your sweet words!
      --Baker

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  10. Great title Baker! ;) I enjoy reading all of your stories and your reflective post is thought provoking and wonderful. Glad you're back! We miss you when you get busy.
    Amy

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    1. Hi, Ames, no i, wonder who came up with the title? That was some smart lady! I can only hope to live up to other expectations of me when I do show up here.
      --Baker

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