I spent a great deal of my week frustrated and feeling negative towards blogging. I posted on Monday and as the comments rolled in my heart sank after several of you found concern in what I had written. I wanted the post to convey how I had almost ruined an entire night of our weekend away by being overly controlling. The post was a failure in that regard. Many of you were concerned that my loving husband was over the top in using an implement twice that I did not like. If I wrote my post in a way that evoked those feelings, I apologize. I can assure you neither spanking lasted over 20 or so swats and neither left me with any lasting damage. He simply stopped the first spanking, because he was far too concerned he would spank someplace other than my bottom because I was dancing around so much. Besides the fact I was not submitting to the discipline and he will usually wait until I can readily submit if I am putting up that kind of fuss.
I wrote the post hoping to help you understand my struggle with control and how upset I feel when I do not readily submit compared to the peace I feel when I do. After reading some of the comments I actually thought it would be best to walk away from blogging for a bit because if I could not share my trials in submission here (where I have been assured I am safe and welcomed) then well, I’ve found myself in the wrong place to share such personal experiences. I will be honest here. I was very hurt. It took a few kind people to write comments that understood what I was trying to say to help me move past where I was at. I also wrote to one sweet blogger friend who reminded me to “cut you all some slack” because we all make mistakes. I really feel the need to publicly apologize to my sweet man for painting him in a way that had many questioned how he treated me. I can assure you that I am very much treated like the spoiled princess that I am and would not trade my sweet Hoss for anyone else in the world. I will plan on being much more careful how I blog in the future, but I also ask that you all adhere to something as well.
One of the mottos my husband and I strive for is to always praise in public and criticize in private. We hold this not only in how we deal with our children, but also one another. I found several of the comments from my post on Monday did not follow this rule very well. I do believe each of you had our best interest at heart, but I need to ask in the future that if you are concerned at any level at what I have posted that you would drop me an email. My sweet man and I are both perfectly happy with where we are right now and I do not expect everyone to understand or agree with everything we do. That being said, I am very much of the belief that everyone has the right to an opinion. I will not stifle your right to speak your mind and welcome you to just let me know how you are feeling in a private email. I’ve always been the shy type and tend to wear my heart on my sleeve. If I am feeling upbeat, you can usually tell and if I am not that will probably come across loud and clear as well. That’s just who I am. I am honest and did not want to hide how I felt from anyone, and just ask that everyone please just be a little more careful in the future. Thank you in advance for respecting my wishes, please.
Now, onto my little story. The other morning was the first non rushed morning we’d had since we returned from our romantic weekend away. Typically, if time permits we spend the early morning time before our day begins with some talking, sweet loving and some spanking. Now, I’m in trouble quite often for being sassy as I tend to push things a bit too far and well, bossiness is next in line or talking over him, so well, we regularly indulge in maintenance to help keep those little pesky habits at bay. But not this particular morning. No, this particular morning my sweet man surprised me. He asked me to retrieve our newest spanking implement. A long black leather paddle that we had not experimented with yet, as it looks to be quite loud.
I retrieved this new prize wondering if I was in trouble and what that may mean for my tush. I’m quite the sweetie when I want to be and really could not think of anything that had landed me in trouble, but well, I claim that quite often and it is rarely true according to my man. Sassy or Snarky are more likely to be my morning names, not Sweetness. I was a bit worried as I did not know how leather would really feel. Would it live up to the hype of being sensual or would it be my newest enemy? I climbed onto our bed, already bared from the waist down and laid over his lap on a pillow. He began. Oh, the spanks were soft and I asked him what this spanking was for and if I was in trouble. I practically squirmed with glee when he said it was because I had been so good that a good girl spanking was overdue. I felt the spanks fall and relished in how relaxing and pleasurable he was making me feel. Nothing he’s used before has made me turn into jello so quickly. My reminiscing stops here, but let’s just say that lovely leather paddle and I are currently on very good terms and the sweet loving that followed was quite divine indeed. I truly was in what I like to think of as spank heavens sort of mood! Similar to the southern version of, "thank heavens!" Notice this is plural because it can be used quite nicely when expressing oneself! These are some a few examples!
“Spank heavens, for leather!”
”Spank heavens, that was felt awesome!”
“Spank heavens, you’re my man!”
I could go on, but I will not as I am certain you have the idea by now what I am talking about.
By the way, I had heard stories about leather being better and well, the lovely little good girl spanking was all that it was “cracked” up to be. I am wishing you all are having a spank heavens of a day!
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